filmed in a shed in Orange County while being hosted by the lovely Chapmans.
filmed at Women's Forum along the Columbia River Gorge.
Soda Pants: Come on Eileen
filmed in beautiful Brea, CA!
This week I moved from San Diego to Santa Cruz. It was a very abrupt move, although I knew for months that I would be moving, I had to leave earlier than expected and I felt like I didn't start to process it until now. I know I didn't say goodbye to many (perhaps any) of my friends in San Diego. I think it was because I didn't realize what the move meant. And I thought I was going to be able to visit more often than I actually will.
I had the strongest pangs of sadness this morning when I realized that I can no longer drive an hour to see my sister and her family. I almost cried thinking about my mom and how badly I wanted to eat a simple lunch with her. I miss making stupid jokes with my brother. I miss my family in San Diego in the house by the big drainage canal we so fondly called the "murder ditch." I miss laughing with my love everyday, although he is only an hour away and we see each other as often as possible. I could just cry thinking about it all.
I think I have been in a slight depression for a while where my loneliness was clouding my eyes from seeing reality. I don't know why I didn't recognize the loneliness until recently. It seemed like I had a lot of good relationships going on, but when I took a second look I noticed that I don't quite let anyone in.
I wasn't registering the feelings of those around me very well. All I could really think about was my own sadness, and I was fixating on how to get that feeling away. The failure I felt everyday when I felt that emotion stick to me made it worse. I didn't want to ask for help and I was in denial about it all.
It takes a lot to recognize these feelings, and most times you need someone in your life who is brave enough to talk to you about it. Try to be brave, you have it in you.
I don't know what I mean to do with this post, but I do want to say I love you to my special people and I am sorry that I haven't been the best at keeping up or being a friend.
If you've been feeling blue for a while and you can't seem to cheer up, maybe find someone to talk to - and if you really need someone, talk to me.
Have a good one,
I am certainly addicted to sugar. I moved in with my aunt and uncle in Santa Cruz and I'm helping take care of their house while they're gone on a trip. My aunt is a health nut, so they don't have any sweets in their house. Today after dinner I was hunting for ice cream! I walked over to the wharf and caught the sunset as I got my delicious fix of coffee flavored ice cream with chocolate-covered espresso beans from Marini's. I'm working on kicking this addiction because I've read the health benefits of cutting down on sugar. Give me strength.
Snapped this photo of a guy eating a delicious looking sandwich from Stagnaro Bros. 2014 marks the 100 year anniversary of the wharf. I love coming here and hanging out with the sea lions. What a beautiful spot.
My band, Soda Pants, successfully launched a Kickstarter a year ago and we are still getting rewards out to people! Our latest installment of the rewards is Youtuebsdays where we release a cover video every Tuesday. These covers were selected by people who donated enough money to fund our album (which you can find here: http://sodapants.bandcamp.com)
Here is the first video filmed in beautiful Troutdale, OR! We were hosted by the most loving husband and wife who quickly became our adopted parents. I miss you Greg and Sue!