Valentine's is coming and the frantic pressure of loving your loved one as hard as you can for a day is buzzing in the air.
Thankfully, despite the pressure of crazy commercialism, I've been overwhelmed this week by the love I feel from friends and my incredible boyfriend, Will. Many reflective nights have opened my eyes and all the cliches in the world made their way into my brain. What I've been searching for has been with me all along. All I had to do was open my heart to the love surrounding me. Shall I keep going?
In all seriousness, though, for a long time I think I was surviving off of really negative thinking patterns regarding certain family situations, regarding the failure I felt from not having a career at 25, regarding my perceived shortcomings in every area of life. That kind of thinking is getting me nowhere, fast. I am strong and I have courage and I will make my voice heard. I will share my music and my images and my art with the world. I am going to find who I am, and if I'm lucky I will facilitate that discovery for another human while I'm here. What I create will exist long after my body stops working. This is what I want out of this short, incredible, beautiful, tragic life
So with this overwhelming realization of love, I've been deciding what I want my music to be about. Who do I want to reach? Why am I making music, why am I focusing my life on music? What do I want to accomplish with my art? What is the goal?
I want my music to make others feel loved. I want to create a community where people can feel as accepted as I feel when I think about the love in my life. I want them to know they are not alone. I want them to find like-minded friends in this community who will help them make things happen. We got this. I want this to be the mantra. We got this. You can because we can. We got this.
With all of the imperfect love I can give,
P.s. these are pictures from my first ever trip to the grand canyon a few days before Christmas. Will surprised me for what turned out to be one of the best gifts I've ever received. Jeez I love that guy.